life

One of those days is today.... that I realized I would  forget about beach vacations, having a pet, and even having children... if it meant 1 thing.... and now I'm doing without all those things and not getting that other thing. So when I take a step away from my life and look at it. I am not getting fulfillment from the things that mean the most to me, and I'm trying to fill those with things that make me look happy... And gosh darn it, I'm doing a fabulous job with the way I'm filling it... at least for other ppl... it's just days like today that make me analyze my life hardcore, that I realize that I have nothing in my life worth living for...