These Days

So after a great weekend of having fun and a  great lead up by having El Porton for the first time... the rice soup is amazing, by the way, but I will never admit it out loud! After spending 5 nights cuddling with a boy that at one point I would've  spent my life with, I come back to reality of my life. I got thru a day ... and then friday night I had an amazing night, taking a long, hot bath, drinking lots of wine, talking  on the phone every once in a while... and yes , my bath was THAT long.  I had a great day hiking in a new spot, and then slacklining with a great group of ppl... but I did not really drink b/c I had to get home  somehow.... haha... someday I willl partake more... mayb it was b/c an 8 yr old face planted b4 i got there and had a ridiculousness on her face that i did NOT want?!  got home, and went to bed, then got up, went to church, and then as soon as I got home, I started drinking... the typical of my life of late. I was making pancakes..... to put strawberries that I have... on.... yeah, by the time I got the pancakes mostly cooked, I could only eat one pancake with strawberries... at 1 oclock... and now... 4 hrs later, I made my fav, cheese dip, and am eating that, while drinking more wine, (to make my hangover from earlier go away - the first time I've ever drank to make a headache go away from drinking...) and I'm a completely happy girl now that I'm drinking more and cheese dip fed... except that all that I can think about is that bad news bears... boy that I will officially drive away from, for the last time in 19  days... yes, that's right,  only 19 days.... today I thought of last year at this time and I can't believe it's a year later... but it is and I'm, going on my way.... sorry if it's not what you want, but YOU had your chance to change things... and YOU didn't... so  I AM GOING!!